Nils appreciates the soft tunes. Most people will not understand this, but those who do will enjoy his company. — GŁnter Holm
It is hard to understand how lonely a creature can be unless you have experienced being alone among fellow human beings. Nils has met a handful of people in his life who did not make him feel lonely.
From his perspective, human beings are mostly oblivious of the marvelous things that go on around them and especially to the finer nuances of human expression, which makes them seem distant and lifeless most of the time.
Nils enjoys meeting individual people, group interaction only confuses him. If understanding on the emotional level is not reciprocal, his capacity for meeting is limited to a few hours per week. This means, of course, that he lived his life pretty much on his own so far: few friends, only occasional jobs, very little feedback on his work. A highly sensitive creature in an emotional vacuum.
Nils has been kicked out of school, has dropped out of job training and then out of university, and has quit a few well-paying jobs in technology (among others: for an IBM shop, a Linux startup, and a SAP contractor). However, the traits fostered in business and academia are simply not compatible with his values.
He started writing books in the 1990's, but did not sell any copies until on-demand publishing caught on in the 2000's. Today, despite being mostly invisible, his books somehow manage to sell a few hundred copies per year (for low values of "a few").
Nils has lived in relative poverty for most parts of his life. Without the recurring help of his relatives, he would have died long ago.
Nils is attracted by anything that is beautiful: literature, math, nature, little insects, and the bright sun rays that fill the sky in the summer days, but most of all by the fragile reflection of empathy and sensitivity in the eyes of beings that are similar to himself.
His passion is writing. He has composed books about all kinds of topics, ranging from computer science to sociology, buddhism and meditation. However, he has published only a fraction of them, because he lacks the resources to market them properly. He also used to write, draw, and craft all kinds of science fiction stuff.
Nils enjoys mathematics, but at an amateur level, because it is a subject that is hard to master in a vacuum. He has also invented several programming languages, among others: T3X in the 1990's and Klong, recently.
Another one of his interests is the effects of intelligence and sensitivity on social integration. He has met so many highly intelligent and/or highly sensitive persons who lived their lives on the margins of society that he started to suspect causation.
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